Easter

Wishing everyone a happy & safe Easter. 

Mummy guilt

Some days I wonder if I'm doing the right thing by my kids. 

Having five children, trying to show them the right way, is no easy task. 

And so many people don't make it any easier! I've been called "crazy" more times than I remember, had so many "pitying" looks, had so many people pity my kids for having so many siblings. 

I had five siblings (1 sister & 4 brothers), I thought it was awesome! I always had someone to play with, and there way always enough space so we could play separately too. I've tried to create this for my children as well, but so many times it seems to all fall apart. They don't want to play together, or they only want to play with so&so, they constantly fight, argue, hurt each other. 

Sometimes I do wonder what it would be like if we stopped at 2 kids, or even 3. What would we be doing? Where would we be in life? Would I have finished my study? Would my husband have injured himself, or would he still be able to work? 

Would the kids be playing sports/dancing/something extracurricular?

There's so much we can't afford because of having so many mouths to feed. Our house is never quiet or tidy! 

And every single day I get at 5 people smiling at me. 5 "I love you Mum", 5 "good-nights", & at the very least 5 cuddles (lol more like 500). 

For better or worse we have 5 children in our family & we love them. No matter what. 

 

The life we wished we didn't live.

Ah the joys of modern technology. We can access limitless information on our phones, get in touch with hundreds of people almost instantly if we wish. And yet we often fall slaves to this great technology we have created. 

Just this week my phone battery died. It was less than 24 hours & I had a new phone in my possession, & yet I still feel lost. Due to battery dying I can't access the data on my old phone. My photos are safe (thank you iCloud), but all my contacts, notes etc are locked in the blackness that is my phone...